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Pagtapak sa Sariling Lupa

Sandigan ko ang sapíng sumasalo sa mga paa,
na sa bawa't yapak ko ay ang pagsumamo—
mula sa aking mga pagluhod buhat sa pagdarasal ng aking kaginhawaan.
Saksi ang mga hibla ng buhok na dumarapo sa aking braso
Mula sa aking pagtangis, gayundin sa aking lupain,
Kaparis ng lupang niyuyurakan ang kinabubuhay kasamà ng aking mga katipon.
Sila itong aking mga panginoon, 
kasama ang mga demonyo sa aking kalooban, 
Kidlat nila sa aking kumitil ng pag-asa; nguni't narito akong tila isang basáng sisiw.
Sa init ng pugad, sa lamig ng hanging mapagtangay,
Ako ay magsusumamo, ako ay hihiling:


Sumambulat ka, aking liryong dala'y galak!
Sa iyong palad, sa iyong bagong pahina,
Ako ay isang hamak na lipon ng mga pasakit at pagkasiya.
Dalasán mo ang paghipo,
Datapwa't ako ay pahintulutan pa ring mapagtagumpayan ang pagkalas sa aking likás na pagkatao.


Sa sarili kong kalakasan, ako ay dampian;
Sa aking pinakamalambot na banig, ako ay ihimlay—ibigay ang nararapat kong pahinga.
Mula sa pagtayo ko, harinawa, 
Damá ko ang pagtindig ng aking katawan
Habang ako ay bumabagtas sa iba pang lupain—sa Visayas man o sa Mindanao.
Dalangin ko ang pagpapanatili ng aking pagiging pantás,
At pangako sa sarili ang pagtapak sa aking lupa.

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